Libido and Art

All my life, I had a need to think painting, to paint in order to liberate myself from all the impressions, all the feelings, and all the anxieties of which the only solution I know is painting.

- Nicolas de Staë

I think it is kind of similiar to what Freud said about Libido, where libido means the energy of life. In his eyes, life is driven by sexual desire, love for oneself, for their family, even love for art or belief. And this energy is not unlimited, what is used up will not be recovered.

When things are not going their way in life, people will feel powerless and debilitated, the way to release these pressure maybe take it out on their loved ones, be it lovers or family and friends, go on a shopping spree, go drink till you drop, so to forget about it for a while.

Artists are usually consider to have a very strong Libido, and it is this pressure and drive from the energy of life that gives inspiration and muse to their artwork. They are usually more sensitive to problems in life around them, and in trying to solve them, be able to boarden their horizon and begin their creation.

When they feel pressure, anxiety, distress in life, will try to find out the source of these complications, analyses it face to face with reason, and consciously readjust its target to the projection of the libido energy. Not to give up and lose the battle easily and waste the chance to grow, but rather, infuse it attentively into their art and who knows, maybe able to change the world in the mean time.

Jacksoul

Went to the Jacksoul concert with some good friends...

i always loved Jacksoul's music...
the music just has this beat that makes you want to dance to it...
and the voice of Hayden is so so nice...
very rich and powerful...
makes you want to just cry with songs like someday

Music is just so amazing and it touches ppl's heart so deeply...
i have to work hard on my guitar...

Very funny Cheer Video

A hurricane started to form down the stomach,
stirring up a tornado all the way up to the heart,
turning, twisting, crushing it like there is no tomorrow.

It doesn't just stop there,
taking its hardest revenge to the back of the head,
initiating a tsunami that floods the whole globe.

After it had build enough force,
with tidal waves that are couple of stories high,
it starts to attack the highly secured waterdam gates
that had been doing a very well job of defending for so long.

They just knows that it cannot break,
because if this stronghold is broken,
the whole thing will be over,
there will be nothing left.

But the impact is so great that it just demolish water gate within seconds,
breaking the rest of the body to millions of little shreds and pieces.

My Favorite Things

Haagan Dazs Plain Chocolate Ice Cream,
Just get a bucket and scope away...

Red Wine with Thousand year old eggs.

Cotes du Rhone Red Wine while watching movie in basement.

Rusty Nail cocktail, having both the smoothness and the bite down your throat.

Coffee with Milo, really great...a must try!!

Smell of dark toasted Mandheling coffee beans.

A hot bowl of Tomato, Potato, ox Tail, on a cold cold snowy day.

The smell of burning firewood.

The sound of saxophone, guitar, and piano.

Cheer's Albums, all her songs, well, most of it.

Sade's music really loud while driving on the highway at night.

Stan Getz's Bossa Nova.

Love Letter's OST when traveling through mountains.

Cheer's songs while driving, is like you are going on a traveling trip.

Watching artist play guitar on stage and singing their own songs.

Watching people doing what they enjoy and have passion in it.

Stealing glances from beautiful strangers on the streets.

Girls with not a lot of makeup on,
Confidence is the best makeup.

Girl wearing just plain white tank top with blue jeans,
Don't need to overdo simple beauty.

When snow had just finish falling
Everything is covered in snow,
And there is no footprints or car tracks on the streets,
Everything seem so pure and quite.

Rain drops on a pebble walkway,
It is like painting it with color bit by bit.

The surface of a lake or pond when it is raining,There are lots of ripples on the surface, Creating really beautiful picture with music accompanying it.

The moment after the rain has stopped, the earth seems really quiet, Then slowly, the birds begins to come out, to tell the rest of the world to get up, The grass slowly rise its head up, and people start to come out from shelter.

The dripping of rain drops on the corner of the roof.

A really really hot shower, till my skin turns all red,
And a good thing about showers, you can't tell which are tears which are the water drops.

Watching children's' smiling face,
Just running around really happily,
Playing simple games (Not PSP!!)

The warmth from a fresh laser printout.

The muscle pain after an intense workout,
You feel you have really worked hard and makes you feel alive.

A causal walk in the walk at dawn, not that many ppl in the park,
Just one or two walking their dogs,
The gentle breeze of the wind moving the little green fingers of the trees,
Makes me clam and peaceful.

The smell of fresh cut grass.

Taking pictures, to appreciate what God created.

Sitting in the corner of the library reading with a ray of sunshine on me,
To let me feel the warmth and know that God is with me.

Small and cozy coffee shops on little side streets,
With a fireplace and a sofa,
Just to go sit, read and write.


When i think of all these things,
I don't feel so bad... ^__________^

When crisis comes

When Crisis comes,
It usually comes in a bunch...

When Disaster strikes,
An oppounity is also at the corner...
There is always contingencies

When Crisis comes,
It is a test of how tough you really are...
How firm can you stand on your ground...
A turning point, a defining moment
and say is that all you got?

When Conflict comes,
It is a measure of the strength and weakness of your community...
Who are ready to to stick with you...
Who are not enough to take that extra step...

It is like a meter that tells you how close are people around you...
You can see some that will disappear right away...
Some just pretend they don't know you...
Some pretend that nothing happened...

It is also an assessment of how many real friends are there to support you...
offer you not only empty words...
but to stand behind your back...
and pull you out of the bottomless pit together..
never to leave you behind...

Thanks for the oppounity to make me strong...
and to see that i am being loved...