Monday, July 24, 2006








今天遇上的困苦和等待,
是為了我們明日的脫變。

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Lady In the Water


Had been a fan of M. Night Shyamalan since his Sixth Sense movie and Signs...
cause his work is pretty orginial... don't really know what to expect in the end...

This movie's theme is that everyone has a purpose in the world, that we are all connected...
we may have doubts in ourselves on what we are to become,
"Who am I? i am nothing, i am just an ordinary guy, what talents do i have to change the world..."
But who knows... maybe we are not to be famous... but someone years from now will read or see our world and be inspired and make great changes around the world...
so don't give up...we are have our purpose and personal legends to chase after...

"I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. John 12:24

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There are lots of symbols and myths in there which i like...
some role as the guild, the translator, and healer...sort of like an RPG game, need to find all sorts of characters before the mission can be completed...
but i guess we all need someone ot translate the symbols and signs of this complicated world and be inspired like the purpose fo the narf in the movie...

Don't go to see this movie if you are expecting a horrow /Thriller film. It has some parts that are inspiring and touching... but i suggest to wait for the DVD...

Saturday, July 22, 2006

On Sickness

Haven't seen sick for quite a while...
This time is from my brother... who had a fever beginning of the week...
when i had to drive him around to work i guess i caught it gwa...
Just funny why the gems will only die down in one person when it is pasted to another person??

when i try to take the pills that i brought from last time to stop the running nose...
it had just expired in Apr...
so had to take the Neo-Citron... i kinda like the taste of it...
with a hint of sweet lemon taste...but bitter at the same time...
it passes the warmth into the veins of my body...
but just dont' like how it makes me sleepy...
maybe i do need a rest....

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i actually like being sick once in a while...
without any strength in your body, you can just lay on the bed...
that i can take off all my burnens... all my masks and just lay there on my bed...
dont' have to be independent and try to take care of everything...
don't have to pretend to be strong and tough like i do everyday...
just to be a little child again...
that i need to be care for once in a while too...
to "ther" ppl around me...
to be upsad...or be mad for no reason...

I guess it is one of the ways for u to know if you love really love a person...
that's if you are able to do stupid things and be a child and show ur true self...
and trust that they will not laugh at u and think u r weak or stupid...XD

Thx mum...

Friday, July 21, 2006

An immigrant to the world



Movies/books have made readers/viewers an immigrant to the world.
It showed us the other side of the world where there are hundreds of possibilities compare to what we call reality today.

What is reality? It is just a chain of consequences that came out with luck and butterfly effects, and defeated all the others. Sort of like there is only one sperm that can get into the egg and all the others dies.

Everytime a page is turned or a scene is opened, they show you what it may have been like and how it reflects on this ugly, shallow world that you never want to come back to. The problem is not getting back to reality, as it only needs a strong will and determination, and will be able to pull yourself out. The problem is not the listener, but yourself. How you can tell people around you what you have seen on the other side.

As Plato said, "You find that you are standing on the grounds / surroundings that you are familiar with, but you have become an alien with a foreign tongue that no one can understand."

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Colorgenics Test

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

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無論如何,我們都是孤寂的。。。

Friday, June 30, 2006

Libido and Art

All my life, I had a need to think painting, to paint in order to liberate myself from all the impressions, all the feelings, and all the anxieties of which the only solution I know is painting.

- Nicolas de Staë

I think it is kind of similiar to what Freud said about Libido, where libido means the energy of life. In his eyes, life is driven by sexual desire, love for oneself, for their family, even love for art or belief. And this energy is not unlimited, what is used up will not be recovered.

When things are not going their way in life, people will feel powerless and debilitated, the way to release these pressure maybe take it out on their loved ones, be it lovers or family and friends, go on a shopping spree, go drink till you drop, so to forget about it for a while.

Artists are usually consider to have a very strong Libido, and it is this pressure and drive from the energy of life that gives inspiration and muse to their artwork. They are usually more sensitive to problems in life around them, and in trying to solve them, be able to boarden their horizon and begin their creation.

When they feel pressure, anxiety, distress in life, will try to find out the source of these complications, analyses it face to face with reason, and consciously readjust its target to the projection of the libido energy. Not to give up and lose the battle easily and waste the chance to grow, but rather, infuse it attentively into their art and who knows, maybe able to change the world in the mean time.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Jacksoul

Went to the Jacksoul concert with some good friends...

i always loved Jacksoul's music...
the music just has this beat that makes you want to dance to it...
and the voice of Hayden is so so nice...
very rich and powerful...
makes you want to just cry with songs like someday

Music is just so amazing and it touches ppl's heart so deeply...
i have to work hard on my guitar...

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Very funny Cheer Video

A hurricane started to form down the stomach,
stirring up a tornado all the way up to the heart,
turning, twisting, crushing it like there is no tomorrow.

It doesn't just stop there,
taking its hardest revenge to the back of the head,
initiating a tsunami that floods the whole globe.

After it had build enough force,
with tidal waves that are couple of stories high,
it starts to attack the highly secured waterdam gates
that had been doing a very well job of defending for so long.

They just knows that it cannot break,
because if this stronghold is broken,
the whole thing will be over,
there will be nothing left.

But the impact is so great that it just demolish water gate within seconds,
breaking the rest of the body to millions of little shreds and pieces.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

My Favorite Things


Haagan Dazs Plain Chocolate Ice Cream,
Just get a bucket and scope away...

Red Wine with Thousand year old eggs.

Cotes du Rhone Red Wine while watching movie in basement.

Rusty Nail cocktail, having both the smoothness and the bite down your throat.

Coffee with Milo, really great...a must try!!

Smell of dark toasted Mandheling coffee beans.

A hot bowl of Tomato, Potato, ox Tail, on a cold cold snowy day.

The smell of burning firewood.

The sound of saxophone, guitar, and piano.

Cheer's Albums, all her songs, well, most of it.

Sade's music really loud while driving on the highway at night.

Stan Getz's Bossa Nova.

Love Letter's OST when traveling through mountains.

Cheer's songs while driving, is like you are going on a traveling trip.

Watching artist play guitar on stage and singing their own songs.

Watching people doing what they enjoy and have passion in it.

Stealing glances from beautiful strangers on the streets.

Girls with not a lot of makeup on,
Confidence is the best makeup.

Girl wearing just plain white tank top with blue jeans,
Don't need to overdo simple beauty.

When snow had just finish falling
Everything is covered in snow,
And there is no footprints or car tracks on the streets,
Everything seem so pure and quite.

Rain drops on a pebble walkway,
It is like painting it with color bit by bit.

The surface of a lake or pond when it is raining,There are lots of ripples on the surface, Creating really beautiful picture with music accompanying it.

The moment after the rain has stopped, the earth seems really quiet, Then slowly, the birds begins to come out, to tell the rest of the world to get up, The grass slowly rise its head up, and people start to come out from shelter.

The dripping of rain drops on the corner of the roof.

A really really hot shower, till my skin turns all red,
And a good thing about showers, you can't tell which are tears which are the water drops.

Watching children's' smiling face,
Just running around really happily,
Playing simple games (Not PSP!!)

The warmth from a fresh laser printout.

The muscle pain after an intense workout,
You feel you have really worked hard and makes you feel alive.

A causal walk in the walk at dawn, not that many ppl in the park,
Just one or two walking their dogs,
The gentle breeze of the wind moving the little green fingers of the trees,
Makes me clam and peaceful.

The smell of fresh cut grass.

Taking pictures, to appreciate what God created.

Sitting in the corner of the library reading with a ray of sunshine on me,
To let me feel the warmth and know that God is with me.

Small and cozy coffee shops on little side streets,
With a fireplace and a sofa,
Just to go sit, read and write.


When i think of all these things,
I don't feel so bad... ^__________^

Friday, June 02, 2006

When crisis comes



When Crisis comes,
It usually comes in a bunch...

When Disaster strikes,
An oppounity is also at the corner...
There is always contingencies

When Crisis comes,
It is a test of how tough you really are...
How firm can you stand on your ground...
A turning point, a defining moment
and say is that all you got?

When Conflict comes,
It is a measure of the strength and weakness of your community...
Who are ready to to stick with you...
Who are not enough to take that extra step...

It is like a meter that tells you how close are people around you...
You can see some that will disappear right away...
Some just pretend they don't know you...
Some pretend that nothing happened...

It is also an assessment of how many real friends are there to support you...
offer you not only empty words...
but to stand behind your back...
and pull you out of the bottomless pit together..
never to leave you behind...

Thanks for the oppounity to make me strong...
and to see that i am being loved...

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Scenes from a Party

Everyone has their own problems and struggles, from family, relationships, friends, work, loneliness, sickness. We all have our own problems but just not willing to face them, we just look for ways to divert our attentions. Going to parties, getting drunk, being surrounded by people, we can temporarily get away from it all. But when the night is over, it is just even worst than before, because you just have to face the problem all the same.

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Jerry and Jessica had just had a big fight before going to Alex's party. Jessica and Jerry get into Alex's apartment, pretend they don't know each other, and just walks around the room and greet their friends.
Even though they didn't say it, but each of them was observing what the other person is doing, eyeing whom they are talking to. ..

Then John arrives with a gloomy face, didn't say hello to anyone, just sat down beside the table, went for a rock glass and poured himself a glass of Jim Beam. Who had just found out that his father passed away today from a heart attack...

Jerry is hitting on Jenny just to make Jessica angry. Jenny knows she was being used, but what can she do, this is the only chance to be close to him...

Everyone have their own reason to get drunk....
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Coming soon....

Saturday, May 13, 2006


整體性格
Joseph先生,心思細膩,品味獨到;親切友善,行事圓融,懂得享受生活;也有追求高品質,不拘小節,堅持原則的一面。
待人性格
Joseph先生待人:相當感性;既喜歡與人同樂也能樂於獨處;謙虛含蓄;會適度偏袒自己人;大方坦蕩但也能保守秘密。
處世性格
Joseph先生處事:不喜歡干涉別人;態度隨和;容易協商;把握重點兼顧細節;有些天馬行空;靈活變通游刃有餘。
性格缺點
Joseph先生性格的缺點為:比較浪費出手相當豪奢;有時候容易妥協不能擇善固執;偶爾會拖泥帶水不夠直接。
價值觀
Joseph先生重視的價值觀為:親密的感情;愛情的滋潤;傳播真理;較不擅長:鞏固權力;節儉守財;出頭爭先。
愛情性格
Joseph先生在愛情上較不適應急躁的進展步調,懂得製造浪漫,會吃醋但不過分;較常表現:善良包容,優雅大方,要求嚴格,積極主動。
金錢性格
Joseph先生的金錢觀:花錢很適度不浪費也不小氣,用錢會有妥善的計劃;容易把錢用於:享受浪漫,交際應酬,提升品質,滿足自我。

Not ready to write anything yet...
need more rest...and time..
to unpack stuff, and unpack my experiences...
still trying to upload the photos from trip and gather my thoughts..
doing this for now...

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Taiwan...Day 4

Very tiring...
a bit sick..cause of too much deep fried food and the air here is not that great...
my throat has been hurting for several days now..
but still have to go on....=P

just came back from Taichong today...
met lots of local ppl here...all very nice ppl and very welcoming..
taking me into their home and willing to show me around...

the concert is so great..finally my wish was fulfilled in seeing her LIVE....
Cheer's voice is so great..the singing is so so touching...


going back to HK tm nite...
bought too many books here in Taiwan...don't know how to carry it back...
hmmm..very very heavy...
didn't buy much of other stuff..cause didn't really go to the "tourist" areas...
and all the food have to be eaten here...can't really bring them back..
dont' know what to do...hmm...

already took like 300 photos in these 4 days...haha...

will write in more detail when i get back...

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Material possesions == psychological fulfilled?

Does more money really make someone more happy than ppl with less money??

As long as we have a certain min. amount of money to take care of our basic and necessary needs..like a shelter..food..clothes...it will already get to a certain level of happiness really fast..
and the more money that we spend...it will only add a little of what is already available, it will not surpass the level of happiness already achieved...


just like in economics...you can only get so much gain in the profits or returns on labour or utility...it is called marginal returns...you need to put in a lot of resource to gain a little bit more after you reach a certain equilibrium level...
Material objects just mimics what we feel as solutions to needs that we don't understand...
Cars and big houses are just material dimension solutions when what we need is psychological ones...

when getting a beer...do u really want a beer or u want the friends and happiness that u always see in the ads...



when getting a jeep...do u really want that Jeep? or the idea of being free and get out of the city and run wild off the roads...



when getting a diamond... do u really want just want that shiny stone on ur finger or the real love that it is suppose to symbolize?




















" Mankind is perpetually the victim of a pointless and futile martyrdom, fretting life away in fruitless worries through failure to realize what limit is set to acquisition and to the growth of genuine pleasure." Epicurus

Why do we want to seek more money in life??
the ultimate goal is so that we can secure attention and respect from people around us..
to make us feel important and wanted...

If that's the case..then does it mean that we just need true friends and family that really love and support us for who we are in the end??

"Before you eat or drink anything, consider carefully who you eat or drink with rather than what you eat or drink: for feeding without a friend is the life of a lion or a wolf."

We don't really exist unless there is someone who can see us exist...what we say have no meaning unless someone is there to perceive it...just like a movie has no meaning if there is no audience to watch it and interact with it...

We also need to have a place where we can voice out and vent...
By writing a problem down, we begin to know its characteristics..., even though we may not be able to remove it...we can stop it from confusing us even more...

"When measured by the natural purpose of life, poverty is great wealth; limitless wealth, great poverty."

" There is nothing dreadful in life for the man who has truly comprehended that there is nothing terrible in not living."

Apr 3

Haven't have a chance to write anything these days...essay due at school...2 exams next week...meetings and stuff...don't really have a chacne to get a good rest...

As well..not that great with emotions as well...for those of u that knows what i am going through..
please continue to pray for me...

Really looking forward to the trip next Friday...
only planned for the first week..which will be mostly in Taiwan..
i bought the ticket...which is pretty expensive..more than i thought...
still didn't get a solid contact with my frd's cousin yet...
booked one nite of hotel in TaiChong..that's it...
maybe i can just hang out at the 24 hrs bubble tea shops or the book store..that's the worst case..haha...

wishing to go to Kyoto now that my brother is out of the Tokyo trip with me...
but have to do reseach and need more money..=P

hmm...10 more days...
didn't really prepare anything yet for the trip...
but at least i need to have some expectations or goals for it...as Nicole always say...haha...
i guess i have an idea of those...will share after i come back...

Saturday, March 25, 2006

30 Hour Famine


Hi all,

I am participating in the 30 Hour Famine and
collecting donations to help children in need around the world.

You guys know that i like to eat
but when you think of all the children around the world that don't have anything to eat,
the poverty and hunger that they are going through,
i think that we need to do something to help them...

So i am going to try the 30 hour famine..which is my first time doing it..

NO i am not doing it cause i want to be on diet..even though i need one...=P
BUT i really want to try to have the feeling and experience hunger and suffering that the children in poor country are going through...(even though it is not even close to what they are really facing)


Would you please click on the link below to
make a donation and help me?

http://www2.worldvision.ca/famine/12987907


The 30 Hour Famine will take place on Apr 7 and 8...you guys will be welcome to join me..i am doing it with some friends in my cell group...

If not able to join the 30 hour famine, you can still help with making a donation to help them...
Would you please click on the link below to
make a donation and help the children?

http://www2.worldvision.ca/famine/12987907

Saturday, March 18, 2006

morning coffee

One morning when i am having breakfast with Teresa at the work place...
we are going to make fresh coffee as usual..

and i said..

J: Hey...This coffee taste pretty good...Which blend is this?? It taste better than the one we were having before...

Teresa looked at me without saying anything...
T: That's the same blend that we are always having...every morning..
but Nicole just moved it into another container so that we didn't have to reach up to the top shelf to get it...

J: Hmm...i i thought it tasted familar...=P

T: It is the Colombian coffee that we always have in the morning...
You are so easily fooled by the packing..haha.a... ^o^

J: Yes..i know..i don't deny it..haha... i am such a sucker...


But aren't we all??
who dares to say that they aren't as easily fooled by the appearances and bland names??
even though something that is exactly the same, their values can be 3 or 4 times difference just because they are sold in a different store or the display is different... >_<